Far away is all I know
So the darkness comes and there I go
Distant, distant distance between
The now and the then, the you and the me.
I no longer want the darkness to come
I think I’m ready, I think I’m done
Throwing myself into some kind of void
That I’ve made just to avoid
The pain that may come when I love close
Because far away I can watch a ghost
And dream of how it could have been
Without ever feeling and get thin
Thinner, thinnest and never to see
Just what could have been of you and me?
So, I was fading away so true and so fast,
Back to a time never to be relieved in the past.
Though I try and I try to make it all right
I must remember it’s gone in the night
And today is a new day, and one God given
And it’s up to me to find a piece of heaven.
Since God is love and Love is all
I give to you, I jump, I fall
In love each time I remember you.
To give my love with no return is not new
Yet I yearn to have it come back to me
And I will find that you love me, you see.
That’s what I want, that’s what I yearn
And that’s not at all what in my life I learned
Will it change now or do I love the wrong man?
I step each step the best I can.
I’ve given you pieces that belong to me
That nobody has ever wanted to see
And it’s frightening when I realize that
We now can’t even find time to chat.
So what’s it about, tell me please
I give you me, and I give you the keys
To my heart and you seem to leave
As I sit here and grieve
Of all that was and could have been
I’m left all alone, alone once again.
Are you gone? Are you there? I really don’t know
Did you step back awhile or did you just go?
Did my search for the truth send another away?
Once more love washed away today
That’s not what I want, that’s not how it should
Not what is, can be, not what it could
Tears wash my face as I feel my love
Go out to you, fly away like a dove
With the peace it has to offer.
My heart is certainly much softer
That it’s ever been in so very many years;
Today I face my fears and my tears.
This state of unknowing is tearing me down
And brings me to my God, brings me around
To the love He has for me that I give to you
And I pray you know, for you to decide what to do.
I pray that you accept my love and my peace
I just ask that you tell me what you decide, please.